You still tear at my heart,
still tug at its strings—
but you aren’t here.

Your death came suddenly,
too fast
those last four months
you were gone in the blink of an eye.

So what do I do now?
I no longer know how to think without you.
I only know this—
I am alone.

Alone without you.

I am a mass of confusion,
viewing the empty spaces you left behind.
Some days I think
I cannot live without you.

I miss your twinkling eyes,
your mischievous smile
I miss your strong loving arms around me,
reassuring me all is well and safe—
as if everything would be all right.

You made my heart swell.
Your love was the kind I could lean on,
and it was all mine!

And now—
I am a mass of confusion without you.

Regardless, one truth remains,

I still love you.